Friday, October 08, 2010

Moving on Over..... there anyone left out here?

If so, i have started a new blog and would love to hear from you....

check me out at:

Saturday, November 07, 2009

Kennedy Getting into Mischief!

Boy o Boy

Porkchop is now officially in our house full more "transitioning" between his foster family and ours!

He is doing great..but is very "clingy" to me. and only me. which is, on one hand, absolutely WONDERFUL....

On the other is wearing me out. Porkchop does not want me to spend anytime with Kennedy at ALL.

Kinda hard to do since Kennedy is still nursing and is only 9 months old and is very much a mommy's girl herself.

DH just took him outside with a toy dump truck to give him some outdoor "daddy" time..and to give me a break...

I know we will eventually even out and find a good routine for our family....until then I guess I need to clone myself!

Friday, November 06, 2009

So much to think about.....

Porkchop's SW called last week to ask us how we felt about having a type of "open adoption" agreement with his bio-mom (is that still the appropriate term?). According to the SW, Porkchop's GAL does not support reunification at this point (gee it took 2 years to come to that decision?) but is not "comfortable" with termination. However, if we were willing to be "open" then she would definitely be enthusiastic about termination.

Bio-mom's attorney is not so excited, as she pointed out (rightly) that an open adoption agreement is not legally enforcable.

Wondering if offering such an arrangement is a way for the "system" to avoid a trial and convince mom to relinquish her rights???? Seems pretty underhanded, to me.

Legally binding or not, such an agreement, is, in my mind, morally binding.

And I just dont' know how I feel about that.

Monday, November 02, 2009

Pondering Open Adoption

does anyone have any thoughts on open adoption?

How would you define open adoption?

Would you want/not want an open adoption?

If the adoption was from foster care- would that change your views on OA or affect how "open" you would be willing to be?

For the 20th time tonight....

I have read "Sheep in a Jeep"

I am beginning to think this is a stall tactic to avoid going to bed.

anyone want to rehaul my blog?

sigh. I need to get back to blogging..I miss the friendships I formed while blogging and the support of fellow bloggers.
Trouble is this blog has been so woefully neglected that it needs a major rehaul..and I don't have the time to mess with it. I really truly don't....Kennedy is now 9 months and into everything, and Porkchop (I LOVE HAVING HIM BACK!) is transitioning to us and is now a busy 2 year he needs and deserves a lot of time (plus he is a one boy wrecking crew and is dangerous around a keyboard!).....

my links are so outdated...anyone have new links for me to put up? suggestions about which links to take down?

GOTTA RUN..Kennedy just found the dog's water dish....ACK!! or should I say SPLASH?>!>!>!

Guess Who's Back?

Porkchop! It's been a long, sad time without our little buddy...but he is back now! Porkchop is transitioning to our house as an adoptive placement! He will be with us fulltime starting on November 6th.....needless to say its been CRAZY! We moved to a new house AND found out he was back in care and that the plan was now ADOPTION!!!

Of course there is a bit of a long road ahead before adoption can take place...but at least he is back with us! Now we are hoping and praying that the court system does the right thing by him and terminates parental rights....

Porkchop is now 2 and a super busy guy! He is struggling a little bit with the transition, but overall it is going well...

I'm gonna be a bit naughty here and post a pic of him....but I can't leave it up for long, so hopefully there are a few readers out there who will get a glimpse of him before I have to yank it off.....

and still more pics....

Long overdue: new pics of Kennedy!

Thursday, April 09, 2009

What I Have Learned So Far

What I have learned about breastfeeding:

1. It takes a lot of time. and I do mean a LOT. the first few weeks all I did was breastfeed.

2. wearing a bra is pretty least at first

3. I tend to obsess about my breasts all the time

4. engorgment hurts

5. the first five weeks were hell. painful, burning, hell

6. it is an amazing feeling to know that my body provides everything my little girl needs

7. the first time Kennedy was nursing and looked up at me and laughed (about a week ago) I cried. it was amazing. it made everything worth it.

7. I definitely get much less sleep nursing than I did bottle feeding porkchop.

8. Still, those late night snuggly nursing sessions are precious experiences

9. Bonus: thanks to breastfeeding, I was back to my pre-pregnancy weight six weeks after giving birth

10. Downside: my body, even at pre-pregnacy weight, does not look the same. I am...shall we say...a bit "floppy" in the middle.

11. it is true what is said about breastfeeding and bonding.....I know I am going to be sad when it is time to wean

12. stretch marks on breasts are ugly. no way around that truth.
13. I feel like a human pacifier. I have tried every pacifier on the market, but Kennedy prefers me. or at least, my "girls."

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Baby Pictures

Welcome Baby!

Kennedy Marie
born Febuary 1st, 2009
9:06 a.m.
8 pds 3 ozs
19 1/2 inches long

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Random Thoughts from a Very Pregnant Woman

1. how is it possible to crave grapefruit and the same time?
2. what if the ultrasound is wrong, and the baby is a BOY....will he grow up with gender identity disorder because his bedroom is pink? come to think of it, most of the clothes are pink or purple. I'm probably not going to sleep tonight thinking about this one.
3. Why is pink a girl color anyway?
4. What if the name we picked out doesn't fit? or worse, it fits, but it magically becomes the number one baby name of 2009...which defeats the purpose of why we picked it in the first place. we wanted different, but not too way out there. So far its been a largely popular pick among people we ask...but then maybe they are just being polite? maybe everyone hates the name and no one will tell us.
5. Related thought to #4- everyone has oohed and ahhed over the ultrasound pictures. what if everyone is really thinking "thank God that kid is not mine..that is one UGLY baby"
6. why do I keep checking the weather channel and moaning over how cold it is outside (some-teen below freaking zero, in case you were wondering) when I dont have any energy to go anywhere anyway?
7. Am I ever going to have any energy ever again?
8. Am I the only one who thinks it is ironic that the one "proven" DIY method of inducing labor is the very same activity that got me pregnant in the first place? I have read countless pregnancy and labor websites and messageboards and it is the consensus that one must DTD (do the deed) to both get pregnant and to kick off labor.
9. OTH, one of those websites had a poster who swore up and down that her OBGYN supported her choice to smoke marijuana in order to deal with her morning sickness and be able to eat food. And other posters chimed in to support the original poster. So maybe its not the most reliable source of information.
10. Its all a mute point anyway, since I have no energy to DTD.
11. Someone said eating pineapple helps. Maybe I will try that.
12. Why do random strangers feel it is ok to touch my belly?
13. Related to #12, what made this one person that I know think it was ok to touch both my belly and my BOOBS? as in, pull my shirt up and say "ooh let me see if your milk is about to come in...." and put cold hands on my stomach and say "ooh let me see if she is moving around...have you dropped anymore?"
14. Why is it my only response to the event reported in #13 was to stand there in shock and be speechless?
15. I wonder if my child will be forever warped because I have been watching Dexter and Big Love. If not warped, at least morally confused. I probably should be watching something mild and soothing, like Little House on the Prarie. Instead I am watching a series about a serial killer with a moral code and a family that lives a polygamist lifestyle. Hmm..maybe I should be more worried about my own Warped-ness.
16. Cloth or Disposables? Breast or Formula? Why is going green and going healthy so blasted time consuming and expensive and complicated? Is the world really going to go to hell if I buy a pack of Pampers?
17. Delivery Fear: I will go into labor in the middle of a ferocious snowstorm. DH will have to put me on a sled and drag me to the main road. and then hope like hell a dog sled team comes by to mush us on to the hospital.
18. Another Delivery Fear: DH will spend more time in the birthing suite checking the stockmarket and reading his email on his blackberry than he will paying attention to my ranting and raving about how this is all his fault. And when the baby is born, he will be more engrossed in emailing the good news to everyone that he will forget to remember that I JUST GAVE BIRTH and NEED HIM. Not because he is callous and cold and unloving, but because he is..well, let's face it, he is a guy. and he is ADD. and giving birth is a largely woman thing to do. and it probably scares him. Still, I might really kill him if this scenario comes true.

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